lost

is under lotss of stress recently.seriously lacking of sleep.anyway i feel relieved now for solving my problems successfully, i still need friends,man is not an island,thought to show that im independant enough.but friends are indispensable for me now.i want to talk crap when im lost.

is under a detoxification programme recently,well reduce weight at the same time,healthly ~friends around me thought im not taking meals,but i do.i take some nutritional fluid,with balanced nutrientss,ok?so no worries,i wouldnt ruin my body in those cruel way.i protect myself well enough.

want to talk crap.but i m seriously lost somehow.in a very unbalanced point these days,i dont know how to express the feelings,just im LOST.i duno what kind of life do i want to lead.its actually not that bad though when i ask those insane questions to myself.i hope this is a self-reflexion period for me whereby i think and reflex.is not feeling good about that because i tie myself up.its not my family surrounding or those problems tie me up,in fact,i tie myself up//I put pressure on my shoulder and so,i need a huge change.i m going to make my life a huge change and before that i need to really BREAK myself.im wondering how can i ,but usually in this case,i need to TRAVEL.to see around,to find new inspirations,to gain new outlooks ,to listen to others,to share and to go into nature.i need a break ,to LEARN and THINK wisely. What do i really want in my future/

is taking fluid the whole day and u know what,its suffering somehow.im hungry sometimes and my mood is affected.went to pasar mlm with sook han,it did cure me up.watched the 'justin bieber' in the cinema with my classmate gang.erhem,it takes up 20 bucks .god,its 3D and it does burn a hole in my pocket.by the way,u know i always like the feel in cinema.i love movies.comfortable.and i waiting for a movie which could make me break into tears.i need tears to wash myself up.its time for me to have a sole-cleanage.hees*to press a 'refresh' button in my heart,i seriously need this.

its odd,i start to find where my happiness is.and i start asking myself''am i happy all the while?'what the hell,i should be happy.yes,i have always been happy,why not?i did,i do and i will.but somehow u dont know what i feel,i feel like i can be happier,in some other way,but i dont know how.What actually make me think like that.god.im lost. my friends said my soul is tired,yes,i make myself so tired.why should i?subconsciously, pls.i always love to work.i wish to,but stress just make me dont feel like going to work.i like babies always,its just...i cant control my emotions lately.pls just press a button'burst' and i want to break.

EMPTY,yes,i feel empty,i need something,but believe it or not,i dont know what do i lack off,thats why.im confused.again,pls break me. looking forward to a brand new day.inject me some liveliness.i hope to stay sole-alive.i want to live to the fullness.what is in my mind?pls just enlighten me,my lord.

ps: im going to detox myself.hopefully i will come out with good effects healthly.nervous but curious.pls just make me comfortable.