silly life.

finally exam finished.so glad it ended, and guess what, i think i couldnt score very well.what hurt the most is the questions were actually not tough,and i would know better if i do more practices.blame it on myself for last minutes hardwork again.whatever it is, at least this time the slight failure did push me forward,got to work triple times hard.happy to have shwu hwa by my side ,motivating me.she is such a motivating person for me.haha,anyway i hate people to describe me as hardworking. i thought its a positive one,but i hate it somehow because hardworks sometimes just couldnt bear fruitsss.for me,its such embarrasing and silly to get bad results with so much hardworks if compared to other people.we dont get what we aim for with hardworks.however,i decide to just ignore this,whatsoever pppl said,im going to just work hard following my pace,no matter how much people thought to be that hardworking.whatever.

i couldnt cover up the disappointment in me.im extremely disappointed, u dont know how much this club means to me,it means too much and i wonder,whose fault is this.why am i putting so much in it?the so-much-different-lifestyle from mine somehow make me very uncomfortable.im trying hard to play hard,work hard.sometimes, i feel like making things right but my effforts are not appreciated. i suck in influencing people,and so i dont know how can i bring out my mind in a better way to be accepted perhaps.adaptation make me dont feel like me.hate the way i live now.everything is in a mess,and i dont ever want to see it from falling,but i dont know how to stop it from.that is not me to talk crap here without any action taken.haixxxxx.u keep me dangling with hopes, but U scatter it after that.Sobx.sobx.


Dont want to scribble already.thanks to ms Tan for igniting my passion to continue espressing by words.Words are always the most powerful thing.


PS : Sam Tet library is the best place ever.

i cared,

and still i care.

Happy hols=)