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yesterday night was simply awesome.its christmas season now,and everywhere is full of christmas spirit.the decorations which they use are so beautiful, snowflakes falling, bubbles everywhere, various colour of lighting flickering=)quite impressed by those kind of decor, never thought they can do everything this way.hees* i always have different feelings toward pbsm fellows,i like them so much.

anyway, i got hurt by someone i care a lot. i thought i was just playing around but i got scolded perhaps, well it actually reminds me of the first time chiang tieng did this to me, awww, i end up crying in the toilet for many hours. and this time, i have to swallow my tears somemore.sorry perhaps u think i m strong enough for many things but believe it or not,i cant bear to be scolded by anyone when im sincerely just want to spend my time with u.maybe im wrong to think that u are just the same,sorry to expect u to be like my closed friends, since we have just known each others for a couple of months.

so finally the enrollment things had ended, maybe it didnt go well as planned ,but i guess everyone did enjoy.hmm, being an english Mc is quite fun ,but the pa system didnt really work well. thats the saddest part.there were many unexpected things happen, such as slide show with no song== and the VIPs were quite confused with the programme..i could see the expressions on their faces , anger and dissappointment were all written on their faces,well,its kind of scary. but it reminded me of my old time, when i really cared about those functions, would always get mad with those 'interruption' which would fail the ceremony.so i think i can accept that. good time working with kah sing=) took alot of photos in coat.haha, i actually think that my attire made me looked so young and its cute,hehe. so glad that i have the chance to involve in pbsm function,and what made things more satisfying was that shwu hwa helped them in prize-giving=) yay, i always love to see people from different areas working together in a big fuction, the commintment is always so awesome. sincerely want to help but u know im always busy body, i love to comment.ewwww, im bad,but i just wish to help for them to do even better,my experience does help=) well, i didnt tell them my opinions in the ends,worried if they will feel awful and think that im over-doing things.

feel so good to get the appreciation from them, at least they thank us=)

learnt something these few days, guys are always guys and no matter what there are always differences between oppositer sex.

PS : there are times when i feel unfair to treat people with sincere ,but end up not being appreciated,not treated back as a friend or being hurt. surviving in an all-guys school is not easy, if being active brings disadvantages more, then i guess its time for me to not being that playful, stay obedient will do. sorry to care for u, i cant afford to be stabbed by u in my heart again and again anymore, and no more for the time being.sorry.

sometimes i think i deserve this, now only i realise how hurt would be ser vio to be 'humiliated' by me. its abit serious to use this word,but i know a man's egoness is so that important and i m actually labelled as ' half-man',hehe, and i label that type as humiliation.i deserve this=(