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Thing doesnt appear to be the same anymore, it could be, but i dont want it to be like how previous thing goes again. watever. im not used to it though.ewwwww,its awful.

anyway, bernard asks me about things i would like to do if it would be doom's day a minute after. well, i never thought of this kind of things before,hehe, but i actually have nothing yet to be done or regretted about.even things do go wrong, i really have no time to hate and be angry about, im busy loving people around,come across this this morning,such a meaningful quote.yay.

year end is coming soon, people come and leave,that is so-called life,sometimes i admit im way too stubborn to want things to go my way, when u really reach this pre-Stage, u will finally realise there is nothing more important than to be happy=) letting go isnt that hard actually, but people just couldnt learn it well.putting down things sound easy to me, but it still takes alot of my time to really do so. there are times when we couldnt get what we want, then just make the best of things u are owning. who cares?

by the way, im currently mixing around with a bunch of juniors younger than me, seeing them going through those stage,step-by-step is way so good. often feel relieved that i have been there before=) so sometimes i do agree that they should be insane somehow, fooling around, starting relationships, breaking up, training, camping.. its the best stage to try many 'first times'. going all out to get into complicated situation , struggle and finally realise. i miss those moment, to learn thing not being taught in textbooks.its way too fun.

PS : never thought that things can be so much fragile than i have expected. anyway,life is still good. i love everything around me,yay, off to go swimming.