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ok, so im back from penang and the usst gathering.

Penang is such a paradise for food hunting,laksa and cendol all the way make my stomach got so upset and diarrhea at night.anyway, its quite a tiring trip where it can be perfect if the hotel can be wider and the weather can probably be more windy.hehe, i miss out the beach part, didnt go to the beach for a stroll.ewww,enough of that, i m not very sure about this, but i feel like i lost the excitement to go travelling as i grow older, its a very tiring one for me,and i think im sick of people's bed, i want my bed !! so i think i will not overnight at people's house or hotel if i can, awwww, bed sick T.T

anyway, usst gathering is nice. i just realise something these days, glamour and attention were what i wanted previously subconsciously,i guess im so not low profile person,awww, i hate myself for being like that, by the time i realise everything isnt what i want in the end, i think many things are ruined.well, it cant be said as ruined, but it just makes things go so awkwardly where im tired of saving and pulling it back to normal,haha, negative feedback in biology term=)by the way, i enjoy the peacefulness, without me screaming away, laughing and all those excitement, im not used to it now, ( for the time-being) im abit more to comfortable silence, i dont need to get so many people right? a few will do, i have been greedy for the past and now im happy with my little presence among the crowd, im tiny i know but at least i live with my own will.

enjoy chatting with zhan ming, servio and hon meng,its a cute convo, zhan ming becomes so charming since his important thing happens,haha.i always enjoy his presence,and i like it when hon meng talks about kids, the happiness in him makes him looks so damn young,hehe,i know it well he is kind-of soft-hearted when it comes to baby innocent kids.he isnt an easy person, sometimes,i feel pity for him to be so 'independent' , his home moulds him into such a careful person, he looks strong outside but i always see him so fragile inside for i donno-what-reason.its like he is lacking of something to complete his life.by the way,suddenly there comes a topic about first kiss,and haha,their reaction is kind of cute >.<

the badminton match before the gathering is kind of fun.i enjoy exercising although its quite extreme where my hands are shaking till now>.< lacking of energy.kind of get back along with yi shen angles jia jia,great ,i know it takes time and i love the effect,everything will be good soon.yay.ohya, and so sad that not everyone turns up for today.jun hao and choon yee them are still so playful ,making those silence all of a sudden between us not so weird, its always funny to have them playing around.its warm although i dont join them fooling around,blowing water.haha, being a bystander isnt that bad,huh?time for a change perhaps, at least feel comfortable with it.

i feel sleepy already,i love the day and yi wai's family is soo nice=)

if u spend too long time holding to the one who treats u like an option, u will miss finding someone who treats u like a priority.