BABE,
Your option :

1) love me
2) leave me alone.

Its cute, life just goes on like that, everything happens so fast and troubles come and go. fine, school finally reopens, nightmare starts.well, i cant say everything goes so badly, its actually fun to go schooling again, i swear i miss every bits of those moments where teachers and students are kind of 'stucked' in the same small class, CONNECTED.

homeworks start to scare me as usual, the stress that i have ignored throughout the holiday just come haunting me back.its hard not to compare, you will do that subconsciously and everyone seems so well-prepared esp guys of course. well, i quit to be a class rep, ohhh, im sorry for doing this, but im sure phaik xia will do a better job=)sorry for the selfishness, i dont really wish to pick up the responsibility again, many things dont matter for me already since the day i quarrelled with jun hao.haha, never think that that incident can actually change me so much. do alot of thinking since then, and i guess there are things that i dont have to hold on to so tightly.staying at the centre doesnt really matter now,who cares? as long as i feel comfortable, i dont mind to just stand aside, doing my job well without being bossy with others' stuffs. its not like are not determined anymore, growing up just teaches you how to choose the priorities and let alone other distractions.

build a strong bond with my bunch of friends now,im leading a wonderful life, really, we dont need to have such many bunch of friends to be around with, a few of true friends with do. fine, my definition of true friends is very weird from others.okay,so i spend my day running usst orientation, im again the mC,but this time, my dearest patner want something like : oh, errr, eh, wa... that kind of so-called natural and funny one, ohmygod, i couldnt sleep well the day before without script prepared,i know he will prepare for me, and i let it be,i guess if in the past , i would already nagging around the day before, i dont like last minute job,i hate it really but im not the only human in this world, there are always time when you just have to let people do what they are too used to. get many new outlooks these days through the movie,hehe, its not about changing people around anymore, there is something else i can do.yay, so mission accomplished, i swear i have tried my best ,kay? accepting the 'me' who im not used to be. anyway, i think we have done a great job today although the time management there is abit delayed but everything else is good. guys are always impressive,perhaps because those we enroll are all leaders of clubs, the way they play their own roles on time is always amzing.i like it, they look lovely when they do things seriously.


oh, im glad zhi qing is trying her best also. well, she is good, thank god, best friends know i dont like to be sticky, i dont like to stick with my own gang during big function, freedom means alot to me.so i think the way both of us cooperate make me feel comfortable, we cooperate with each others by working on our own styles.yay, team with yue hang and her, we dont talk much with each others, fooling around with babies form 1, but i like the feel where three of us keep ourselves reminded about the time left by gestures from 'long distance'. okay. im trying to be friendly with form 1ssss,hehe,so cute.i remember there is a moment when i ask yue hang to play something or what and he asks me to play by myself ==then he stands aside really enjoying 'HIMSELF',laughing away!!hahahahaha, im definitely insane, i always want the feelings like this, my future boyfriend should learn to give me ' SUPPORT' or ' PERMISSION' to play provided he ENJOYS HIMSELF WITHOUT ME TOO.ewwww, noted, im playful and not easily pleased=0


okay,im doing good, saturday and sunday are sooooooo good, at least i can sleep as long as i can, do whatever i want without restrictions,24 hours without school is too wonderful to do something else other than just studying.. i want to go swimmingggggggggggg.

kay, thats all for today i guess.i love all of u, no doubt.

PS: Edward, Mages, nicholous and zhe yang always make me want to look twice before i look away, the seriousness in them make them soo adorable=)yay. ( things observed when i stand on stage eyeing around as a MC today)


Sometimes by holding on too tight, you end up losing what you were trying to save.ILY.