Hi.feel the urge to come writing again.

oh, life is still okay these days. haix, i guess i have abandoned my homeworks and studies for quite a long time, just picked it back today with yon sheng and shwu hwa's company. spent my day in the library and guess what, im going back there to do some reading later at night. spare me some time to post my life here. well, im kind of busy with movies these days, bad right? feel extremely guilty to see people around me still holding a book in front of them while im facing the laptop. okay, im following the movie ' The Hippocratic Crush' so called 36 hours on call.wow, i tell u, its actually a good movie. u should try to have a look if u have ur ambition as a doctor, well, i accept the fact that it is just a movie but it gives me a new insight on my ambition. okay admit it, it isn't easy to be a doctor, and i start thinking about my future.Im not sure whether i can handle the life of a doctor where u have to divide ur time to your patients and family. for sure, i dont have a good time managament,so i really don't want to be stucked in the middle,rushing here and there,for your loved ones, and for the people.u end up mess up everything and maybe to a more sombre side, having a broken family. but, i really hope to service for the mankind, contributing to the society, learning more about human especially when u can see how people handle their fear. and i love myself too, i want a husband who i can spend time loving him,i want a warm family, where i can have children with enough time to nurture them, i want a healthy lifestyle where i can have adequate sleep without 24 hours on call, i want .. im greedy ,i want to enjoy life,i want freedom. so i m in a dilemma whether i should limit my freedom with heavy responsibilities on me. am i ready to work for the people?am i that kind enough?

okay, im not ready to make that decision.anyway, im good with yon sheng now.haha.thank God for the acceptance u give me. there are many things beyond my capability but i know i will have that strength with your support behind me.Oh, thanks to u also for giving me such good friends who i can work hard together.People who are serious in doing things are always the ones who i look up to. everyone looks good when they concentrate and work hard for something=)perhaps we don't perform good, but i admire the courage to try and to grab for what u want,don't wait for miracles, get it by yourself.

oh, i have to go out already. Happy birthday to Mages=) i hope he stays healthy always and be happy, the most important thing is i hope he sees the best part of him as how i see it and hold on to his good virtues.all the best.

PS :i thought to put a guy photo with me beside as my phone wall paper, but im kind of worried if my mum sees it and think im dating someone. haha, the fact is i look good in that photo and i like it,cute right? i don't want her to worry because i know she won't ask me for the truth, she gives me full freedom, but as a mother, for sure they will try to check on our daily rountine.i don't want her to start guessing as i know it very well, guessing things of your loved ones is the most tiring and suffering things=)

i will try defying gravity

and u won't bring me down=)