Hi love.here again, of course exam period would never be interesting and fun. Recent coming posts will surely bored you, read at your own 'risk' .

Okay, the toughest papers have all gone and now left with something light, at least light enough for chewing and digesting purposes. i miss the days when i really feel satisfied with my performances after the papers. DAMN, almost every paper now is hurting me A LOT, how disappointing it is and it lasts for many days! by the way, what makes things a bit relieving is that i am not the only one who thinks so, i actually feel extremely relieved when people around me complaints that they have put quite many efforts but yet it just doesn't hit the goal. Similar case here. feel really annoying when answering the biology questions today. seriously, i think i will burst out like a bomb real soon. start hating the education system in our country, shouldn't learning be fun? and for us, the heavy load on our shoulders is just enough to kill our brain cells after every examinations. U suck, everything sucks. To whoever concerned ( i also don't know who should i direct this to ) i m so tired of YOU making us doing things for a reason, i want to do things because I WANT TO, its fun, it makes me HAPPY.and Form 6 just makes studies -NOT FUN at all=(  ArGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGgggGggggggggggh! i am going to wage a war to YOU! yes !you!to exam ! IF you want us to like you, why don't you make things a bit easier, at least please don't burn off my fire after i take such a long time to lighten it.DAMN YOU!

hmm, to be honest, i don't know how should i start revising my subject for tomorrow. Congratulations, u reached your aim, u got what you want, you hurt me, whack me , torture me, stab me in my heart, i am hurt, i am at the brim of giving up, i struggle and you just turn your back on me, without appreciating what i have done to grasp hold of the ultimate aim. I dislike you very much. When i gave you a chance, i tried not to give up on you,hard, very hard,and u just ignored it, and now i am going to LET YOU GO! ( PS : this is personally directed to the exam papers , no offence ) the anger got a hold of me. im seriously mad at the painful truth.

anyway, u know me well, i will get back on action again in a few days time. Dear Lord, i really hope someone precious , probably my parents not to judge me through the results marks i got for every paper. i guess they don't really bother about that on the surface, but i need them to tell me,tell me that they know i have tried my best and just work on my pace without the need to compete with people around, making things so stressful. I LONGED FOR THAT, i know that will make things alot better. family support is important to me, but i don't think i will ever have that, my mother is a teacher and pei suen is in my class=( Do u know how hard for me to admit that i failed in doing something, it takes a lot of courage as u know i am quite an ' ego' person, but then i don't have any choice. fed up of looking at people's belittling eyesight, im not as good as you , SO WHAT?

Take a deep breath and keep going love. thanks for those who love me so much along the way. Hor Yan who always studies with me in the library, Yuan Yi who tells me exam is not a big deal, Chai Yan who shares exam tips with me,Mages who wakes me up in the middle of the night to keep me from falling asleep, and my sisters for having their exams same days with me...and  many more.

Dear God, there are many feelings that i can't express in my prayers, i just hope you can listen through my heart. Today's horoscope for me is not bad, believe it or not, i actually have faith in that, it says that i have a good news today where things that i expected to be beyond my reach always is actually reachable already for the moment. perhaps? i hope this is truly happening, i don't know what's going on in me already.

You are so beautiful but that's not why i love you.