Seriously, its exactly what i am feeling right now. Okay, subconsciously , i have been taking this long holiday as a chance to escape from the cruel and competitive reality. Results will definitely be distributed back to us, and i guess it wouldn't be that good as expected. DAMN. Couldn't this just end ? the same thing repeat and repeat again, no matter how you have tried to mend things up, everything just stays the same way it was =(

okay, NERVOUS, FRUSTRATED, SCARED, AFRAID, DISAPPOINTED, LOST. i am having all kind of feelings. its like i don't know what kind of feelings should i prepare to face school again. its the hardest thing ever. facing such uncertainty, school sucks for me for the very first time. arggggggggggggggggh.

May the odds be ever in my favour, i pray to you, my Lord. i leave it all to you,i want your protection this time.

PS : i don't even know how to socialise anymore. somehow, i just wish someone can actually tell me everything, just realised i have been living in a scary world, how couldn't people just tell people about the way they look and feel about each others so that there is room for improvements and notice our self- mistakes. Perhaps they are afraid to hurt people, but the way they convey the message about their feelings to somebody through a middle-person or through accidentally-slipped words is way more disastrous than telling the truth. i dislike a guessing-type of lifestyle, be sincere people !

feel so emotionally-unstable these days.  Take care of me, will you?