Hi there. I am happy today, more to satisfied i think=) its a productive day,congratulation!

Went to library with zhe yang this afternoon since he had to help out his mum at his shop there. By the way, i woke up at about 11am so had my lunch before going to library, Its far more better actually, well, realised i have been overusing my pocket money lately.felt the pain when i had to fork out extra money for something else.

So fetched zhe yang from his house and went all the way to library. That little kid now starts to sit in the car LIKE A BOSS, thinking it is his car already i guess. Having his lunch inside, with me drinking coffee beside=) ha ha, enjoying life to the max, of course have to be extra cautious , not to dirty my precious car. okay i know my car is messy.ha ha. Got us a place near the air-condition site. windy=) and it made my whole day, doing maths like a test there with him beside me struggling with his chemistry. Surprisingly he didn't ask me any question, perhaps i told him i want to do maths like in exam. Sometimes, its very sweet of him to actually take in every words i said seriously,okay at least i know he is kind enough to respect my decision.ha ha. so spent my 3 hours doing my maths, okay there were few questions i didn't manage to answer sadly, i wonder how could i sit for exam like this=( but not really as bad as my paper 2. Zhe yang timed me up. so ' responsible' him=.= anyway, i was glad that i could fully concentrate there without him talking and having fun with me. i like it so much, felt like i was really doing something instead of wasting my time, knowing the fast approaching of trial exam.oh, zhan ming, yon sheng and shwu hwa were there too=)which i am always glad of. they give me strength.

So, it was a productive afternoon. Sadly i couldn't renew my reference biology book, left it at library there. Will surely pick it up again tomorrow. Guess now i should stop studying and start doing exercises. I am doing that currently, i hope the fruits will be sweet.

Went jogging with him after that at polo ground. it is actually my daily routine and he wanted to follow since i fetched him home. Time to get fit boys! This shy fellow didn't want me to look at him while he was doing all those muscles-building exercise. so, i had to run one more round to make him more comfortable. by the way, i really hope that he can be more daring, do whatever he wish to do without backing off, then he would be perfect=) tired one. the first time i eat there. Got myself a drink and he bought some keropok, i think. sat at the side enjoying the breeze on the bench. The weather was too good today, spent more time sitting and chatting there. i am glad i did take zhan ming's words seriously, zhe yang and me shared a cup of lemon juice with two straws. good one, i nearly forgot, he took one more fork for me for his food purpose and i got one more straw for him. guess that it won't be that good to share saliva right? i did that last time, but then time to isolate myself from GUYS.ha ha. not that good to be too ' physically-closed' . Thank you for reminding me.

So that was half of my day. i hope he went back and continued studying after that. i like to work hard together,too easy to give up when you are alone. so just took my dinner and later should keep going=)
Anyway, it had been a peaceful yet happy day !! GO GO GO ! i pray for myself and everyone else to keep our mind clear of everything, especially stress which me got our pace all messed up. Just stay calm and keep going, everything will be alright in the end=)Give me strength, my lord. keep me motivated while i am saving myself.

Thank you for giving me this friendship.i don't know how long will this friendship last, but then, for the time being, i hope i will cherish it. Everyone will have at least one friend, who for whatever you do or have done, he/ she won't judge you. Its not like he knows nothing, he knows everything and yet no judgement. he is too innocent to judge i think=) he gives me space, let me make my own decision, perhaps i should let those who i love some space too? Give them the freedom to be themselves, to make their own decision, to walk their own way. This was what zhan ming told me, i think i become more demanding these days, too blinded by things happening around. i want to change people, i want people to follow the way i want them to. i admit this, its not only these days, this is my basic nature, a part of me.  Sometimes, i really wonder how can people let others do something they don't agree with? maybe i am the one with too narrow mindset, my acceptance range isn't that big, going to learn it slowly, starts from my friends beside me=) thank you for enduring all my temper for such a long time.

(If you understand me) the best feeling is when you found a best friend who you are not afraid to lose. the feeling of losing makes people become more and more demanding, and that is not a healthy relationship.

 i am not good recently, i start to afraid of losing.


PS : anyway, Its good to blog, it makes us appreciate more. and with appreciation, you won't go wrong=)