These days are productive ones.  I hardly sleep at night because have to burn midnight everyday until almost 2 in the morning.  The problem is when i finally finished, i would always find it so difficult to close my eyes, i think it is the effect of our body after going through the sleepy hours, so when it reaches 2am, my mind automatically turns so FRESH=.= Of course, this makes my waking up process in the morning a lot harder, can see that bloody capillaries of my eyes surfacing so obviously. Pity, just hope my eyes will still be in good condition when i finally completed my mission ( STPM ) Believe me, its really killing, i never knew humans can actually go that far to score well in any exam, until this time. There's really no life in us now especially in this two critical months.


Want to write down how hard i am doing now so that i remember the hard works i have to pay off before yielding the fruits. Phaik Xia once brought me to one of the corner of our school corridor to show me the quote hanging up there. I remembered vividly how i laughed about it when she showed me and did really wonder the reason she thought i wasn't doing like what the quote directs us to do. I thought i was doing pretty good , but then this time i know i wasn't. There's still so many rooms of improvement for myself and i have to say that wasn't the best that i could do. I thought it was the most that i could give, but its proven that i haven't reached my limit. ' Rather the pain of discipline, than the pain of regret' A token of appreciation to Phaik Xia, as this quote did surprisingly etch in my mind for such a long time, and have become my drive of giving more and more.

I want to try my best, my very very very best.  Till that day, i pray that everyone who is working so hard with me to be in good health and to have a peaceful mind. Grant everyone of us the strength to handle the pressure of exam, the confidence to feel secure in the knowledge gained, and most importantly the ability to keep loving and caring for people around. I sincerely hope everyone including me to always keep in mind that although we are under such a big pressure cooker , never fail to express your love to your loved ones.

PS : my brother is currently studying in Sawarak uni, i hope he is taking good care of himself without the company of family around=) make sure he loves and appreciates us more and more after he realised the lacking of comfort to be not with your loved ones. Home sweet home.

Problem with home-coming from Uni - hardly want to sleep because it simply shortens the time you have at HOME , this was what i saw from people's status and a gush of warm blood flowed into me when i came across this. Home is always the best place in the world. Cherish !

 

Basically what i am doing everyday, not fun at all.