Good morning beautiful.

Tomorrow is again a small test for us. Hmm, thinking of doing my best there, but then it feels like i am still not ready. OUCH. I blamed school for only telling us a week before. They expected us to be like Kah Sing, instead we are not, we burn midnight oil at the eleventh hour. Anyway, have to try to go all out this time, but then with lesser stress, i still play around. Nope, i should say, i play more when the exam is coming, weirdo.

Thought of starting a relationship in the midst of the exam month. I think my brain must have gotten wrong somewhere. U know what, what struck me the first moment i thought of accepting him was that this was the so-called life-changing decision for me , I know God is testing me.but i don't know what decision he wanted me to make to get the best out of everything. I don't have confident in my studies.i am not sure whether i can balance both things well at the same time, not sure whether i can really divide emotion zone and rational zone into two uninterrupted part in my mind. But then, thank you you still helped me in the last minute. Ended up i am happy with the decision made by both of us.

What made you start a relationship, i wonder. I started off previously because i had a crush on that person first and then it turned out he had the same click on me.So life went smoothly with some kind of couple-like-daysss after that. But then, for now, i admit i don't have the click, the flowing admiration, the secret love inside of me for the person. Is that necessary? What comes between us is just friendship( a little above ) and some understanding which i am not sure will that still exist when the friendship is upgraded to a boy-girl relationship. oh, so many unsure things. OUCH.and i am still thinking of starting one , huh? i am just wondering should i give it a try since he is treating me good and i can always count on him when we were still just friends. Eventually, we have to start somewhere, isn't it?

Tell me how to make this kind of complicated decision.i am not sure what kind of future lies in front of us, and if you tell me it isn't right, i  can make up my mind to make every thoughts in me about that varnish, i am just worried this is the chance and i fail to grab it.

Studies come first after all. i promise.