2011年11月23日星期三

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just came back from teluk intan one-day trip with servio, shwu hwa and zhan ming.first time walk under pouring of rain, well its actually so heavy until our shirts are all drenched> can u imagine the situation where the road is so straight along until there is no where for us to shed from the rain, all we can do is to run. Ironically, we actually brought umbrella,but we rather get wet than to take it out,haha, such naughty bunch of guys.its so fun by the way >.< always feel so warm when everyone get wet together, share an umbrella, use the same towel , run together , guys protect girls, girls help carry guys' bagss=)

its always good to travel together in somewhere we are not familiar of, end up we have to take care of each others,i always like to see great friendship built in order to accomplish some missions. start sharing a bowl of noodles, walking together, drinking beverages with one straw, tasting food here and there are often good signs. teenages,with so called 'buddies' should be in this way right?

anyway, im glad servio comes along this time, of course , i think to drag along shwu hwa only this time, but since he wants to join, i guess better for him to come, so that he can get his feeling of 'secure' by seeing the venue by himself. never think that his presence can be so helpful.well i admit i might have underestimated him, i know his experiences help alot.he survives quite well in finding places,and venues for my task games,and im impressed when he is the one who keeps us reminded of our purpose for going there, u know such people like us always deviate from our aim fairly quickly.yay!!mission accomplished although there are still alot to go.at least i got the coffee shop which is my biggest success!!!yay!!! well, pls just hold on to, u will never get an aswer if u never try' ,so just keep asking=)

watever it is, of course i really hope our friendship will finally work out, perhaps sometimes i hope everything turns out well to be too fast,i acknowledge that im abit impatient, but what he said, he has the feeling of 'finally-get-home' feel when he enters his class hurts me so much.hmm, i understand the reason he says this, he just want to share, but it hurts because through this, he makes me feel like he values his class more than this club,well who cares?its his business ,but if isnt he who cares the most, then who will? i dont blame him or anyone else, i guess i should blame myself for not helping,oh..

anyway its always a new start, looking forward for the coming test game event, im kind of nervous of the undone programme thing.awwwwwwwwwww! scary. sometimes i know that i can share the so-called burden with them, u know, because the programme will end up passing through them ,screening,and modifying, but pls allow me to say that,im always afraid to tell them the plan, ending up too many minds at the same time.and belive me, i really dont know how they think, that s why i really hope i can read their minds or perhaps they share their thoughts with us more DEEPER but not often, i feel like we actually meet alot, talk alot, chat alot,but seem like all is like touching the surface, without going deeper. this makes me start guessing how would they think, and end up im quite frustrated with them, u know i hate guessing.

kay, should work out on this part.u know what, i astart to avoid speaking of clubs jobs until they start asking.how pathethis it is wher u have to keep jobs away just to maintain a friendship.it doesnt sound like me because this two are on the same line for me.

PS : why do i always feel our distance get further apart everytime we talk? u are the one who can make me give up on chasing something,its always u,no doubt.



afraid and you dont come along ♥
(Yuan Yi said this to me)

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