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woooo, so glad i can spend my time bloggging here again. So exam finished,that is.well, its not that happy as expected ,hmm it always happens to be, just put down the burden of studying day and night now its another nightmare to receive my results.ishhhhhhhhh. i swear, i will end up shaking all the way down, boosting up all my courage just to have a peep at the sucking mark written big enough at the upper site of the paper.it seems like it has self-magnifying power in which it always appears to be soooo big when the mark sucks alot=/ pls, well, people around me keep telling i will be doing good.huh?i dont even feel it for myself,and seriously u guys too highly-estimate me,i can be that bad where u guys will show kind of weird face looking at my marks : what kind of marks is this=( it is always so depressing seeing those faces.


i think im under alot of tension.i couldnt help but feel like crying when the last paper is finally collected.Woooo~its touching, u know.i have been shivering for so many daysss esp the moments when i sit in the car waiting for the arrival of exam time.i might seem chill but dont judge me just by looking at my appearance.i have to admit im good in covering up when i want to.the butterflies in my stomach make me feel so sick where i feel like throwing up in the ladies.am i pregnant?hahaha.

and so,got to pick up the mess i have made in my maths paper tomorrow=( again, nervousness kills.what the hell...anyway, sixth formth night full rehersal is just few days after.kinda worried about it as it is not as easy as i have thought of.How would it be?lacking of time to practise.i hope the way i arrange the cameron trip right after exam is not wrong, the schedule is abit packed.i realised that long time ago, but u know nothing can stop me from doing things on my way, where i want to really distress.

just simply hope everything goes fine for the performance.i have no idea how to carry on from there,how i wish somebody can just give me some hints or tipsss on linking-up-story-lines.i always have my own expectation, i dont want to be just normal, i want something really SPECIAL.and something can really make us different form others.more outstanding,and when people talk about it, they know its L6B1. we are not only nerdsss,huh/we find the balance point between, that will be the proudest thing to have.


Sooo, tomorrow will be my doomed day.Dear God, pls love me as u always,dont burn off the only fire left inside me, i need that to continue the journey ahead. dont take everything away from me. Give me some HOPE, and i swear i will do better.


It not about doing your best now, its about doing better=)