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I hope u understand the pain im going through,its not like i can choose not to care for it and that is. sorry if the depression in me hurts or irritataes u, i just couldnt help but feel like every pieces of me start breaking down whenever things go so wrong. well the stupid crazy marks are just printed so vividly on the paper and on my mind.its just u got such a good grade and u tell me to stop bothering about it?such ironic thing always hurts the most.

I feel like giving up.and whenever i want to, there is a voice keep pushing me that : whener u feel like giving up , just remember why u hold on for so long in the first place. U know what, i know my starting poing will never be easy but oh God, u are such cruel this time,and i feel like u take everything away from me. thank God when everyone beside me start concerning about me, consoling my sadness , but that is not going to work u know.it never will because u just cant imagine how extreme my sadness is. Stop saying that im good enouh but u are actually alot better.Fine, im leading a competitive life.


So SICK OF LIFE, and somehow i just hope something can bang me just to wake me up from this nightmare.Do show me something with hope, i feel like falling into pieces.All i want to do is to cry like a baby, until im so tired, end up slepping and forgeting everthing.the reality is just too much for me to handle now.